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Oct. 2nd, 2010 | 02:23 am

I haven't so much as looked at this page in over three years. "What was I talking about?" Is a common reflection as I scroll through the history of my first adult years. Some of the references I remember well; they all seemed so important at the time I didn't even bother to write out the details half the time. Encrypted in a language I barely understand anymore are what I considered to be my darkest and my most cherished days. In time seeds grew to trees, and knives cut deep wounds where scars have now been healed for so long I barely notice they're even there, nor could I tell you how I even got them.

Since then a bond between best friends was severed over insignificant bullshit, and I was certain there would be enough time for this too to heal. I was wrong. I couldn't honestly even tell you what happened. He was just gone one day, as if the God I didn't even believe in one day showed up to punch me as hard as he could in the stomach for being a shallow prick. This is how his death affected me This is how I feel to this day when I think about it. I go back through and I read jonniesunday bantering with ninjacharlie. I read the only remaining goodspy entry. I ponder my most vivid memories of these times. Our comments and entries are full of the attitude that we all shared. We would not have mistaken this fleeting moment in time for something permanent had we really known what permanence was and what it meant. If there is any meaning to all of this, I believe it is that.

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some compound sentences

Jul. 13th, 2007 | 03:06 pm

Fellow humans, stay away from me. You're always getting me sick, and I'm pretty pissed about it. I want to be well; I want to live.

I'm pretty bored today. I ate a pint of Ben an Jerries DMB ice cream, but I couldn't really taste it. I made a couple turns through the neighborhood on my longboard, so that was good. Taken the last couple days off work, we had an accident on wednesday and someone got electrocuted because of a bad extension cord. That was some freaky shit- happened right in front of me. Otherwise, I've just been doin my thing. jae

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Jun. 25th, 2007 | 02:55 am

sometimes i feel like certain people shouldn't be in my life. its hard to know what to do about it though. like, you can say, "its not worth the effort/drama" and just let things be, or you can subtly avoid, or you can do a full on cut. doing nothing doesn't really address what i want, subtle avoid can backfire pretty badly, and telling someone to go away seems overkill. i think a good rule of thumb is that, when you want to tell someone to take a hike, thats not a good time to do it. When you're really dreading it is when it is most warranted. i hope this summer goes differently than last. all in all last year completely sucked ass. There are things I do differently as a result, but there's still things I need to learn to change. For example, I am WAY too accomodating to other people. I get stretched too thin by people in demand of my time. My search for personal simplicity ends up getting lost in scheduling conflicts and "i'm running late's". act for change

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Sep. 25th, 2006 | 03:07 am

Schwagm (02:27:14): nothing worse then a gay drunk mexican
jonniesunday (02:27:18): no shit man
jonniesunday (02:27:24): like
jonniesunday (02:27:37): theres really nothing harder to interpret than slurred come ons in spanish

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Sep. 25th, 2006 | 02:59 am

one day you'll be forgotten from this earth. everything and everyone you know will be gone. eventually you'll be a thumbnail on a family tree if you're lucky, and after they're gone you'll be nothing on this earth. At most you'll be defined by your generation, if your generation did anything worth noting. But eventually you'll be a statistic in your era, epoch, or whatever. All indivudualism lost. Well, I suppose you better fight to the top. It's the only way to eternal life. Memory. Although, when the sun explods and engulfs the earth, who's going to care anyways. In the long run we're all dead and forgotten. And we all die alone. Although, we can probably take some comfort in that our planets demise will come long before any cosmic catastrophy. If its not nuclear war it will be global warming. I'd rather jump off the cliff than be pushed, anyway. Cheers to the end of time.

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Sep. 1st, 2006 | 08:41 pm

it's weird how, one minute you care and you're pissed off things aren't really goin your way, but enough beer with the right people can make you geniunely happy about the same situation. Magnificent. Otherwise, I'm just trying to learn the acoustic version of Layla on my guitar. Fuckin clapton dude, what an incredible guitarist. Either way, it's probly gonna take at least a few days, soo worth it though.. I've only got the intro with that mini solo thing so far, but its incredible.

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Aug. 30th, 2006 | 08:30 pm

the night was dark
the seas were rough
the port lay straight ahead
the booze ran out
the men grew tired
and this is what they said:
"captain if you cannot find a place to set her down
then you'll be sleeping right along with this vessel in the ground"

well the jolly roger pulled through
and made it to the land
we disembarked
went into town with vengence in our hand
the children cried
the woman sighed
the men just turn their heads
so with a smile we chated loud and this is what we said

"ooohhoooh
raise'em in the air
we'll knock you up
and slap you down
and never seem to care
ooohooohh
another one for me
cause we're the filthy vermin
that will set you people free"

with nothing left for us to drink
the night was winding down
but still the girls kept swaggering
and still hanging around
oh! mister can you tell me where i can find a man
the only thing that you will find is the back side of my hand!

"ooohhoooh
raise'em in the air
we'll knock you up
and slap you down
and never seem to care
ooohooohh
another one for me
we're the filthy vermin
that will set you people free
we're the filthy vermin
that will set you people free
ooohhoooh
raise'em in the air
we'll knock you up
and slap you down
and never seem to care
ooohooohh
another one for me
we're the filthy vermin
that will set you people free
we're the filthy vermin
that will set you people free "

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set the fire to the third bar...

Jul. 22nd, 2006 | 06:20 pm

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from here to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

And miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

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Jul. 18th, 2006 | 11:47 pm
music: Barrington Levy - Undah Mi Sensi

jonniesunday: i smoked at 4.20 today
jonniesunday: also
jonniesunday: cuz i was listening to NPR
jonniesunday: and every day they change shows at 4.20
jonniesunday: so they're always like
jonniesunday: this is kuow, its 4:20
LuCkYcHaRmEr19: haha

...

LuCkYcHaRmEr19: i know like the other day i was smoking a bowl and i got way high and couldn't finish it
LuCkYcHaRmEr19: and then i looked down at my cell phone and i literally watched it change to 4:20
LuCkYcHaRmEr19: and it was a sign, i had to finish the bowl
jonniesunday: hahaha

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Jul. 4th, 2006 | 12:23 pm

people want to say i have a drinking problem, or a smoking problem.. I have a my life sucks problem, so fuck off.

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